Self-centered

Today I got a text message that really woke me up to reality and made me realize how pathetic and selfish I am. My best friends grandmother died today. It was after he told me that I realized everything I've been upset over and stressed over is really not a big deal. I am lucky. There much worse things that could happen to me.
It's sad that it took someone's death for me to realize. Right now, he's going through much worse things than I am. I need to stop dwelling on myself and really be there for him. He may not be ready now to open up about it but when he is I want to be there for him. Right now I don't think everything has sunk in. When it does, he will need someone to talk to. I'd like to hope I can be that person.
I've really been praying about. Praying that God will help me to know what to say to him to make him feel better and give him some comfort. The last thing I want to do is say something stupid that only makes things worse.
I kind of understand some of what he's going through. Since I just lost my friend at the beginning of this year, I know what it is to lose someone you are close to. Although losing your friend is not the same as losing your own flesh and blood. But I can at least understand some of what he's feeling. I'd like to think that God is taking some of my hurt and using it for the good of others.
Right now I am really worried about him. I don't know when things will hit or how but it won't be easy when they do. I know I didn't actually start to accept what had happened until I went to the funeral. It was only then that things hit and I broke down.
It was one of the worst feelings I've ever experienced but I think it was very important to feel. I really hope that he can go through his grieving process and let things out. It's not good to keep things locked inside. It'll only make things worse and someday it'll become too much.
I guess all I can do for now is pray for him and be there if he needs me. I still can't help but be worried about him. I wish there was something more I could do but there really isn't. This is a matter that only God can help with.
Death is a hard concept to deal with and understand. There is a reason why God takes who he takes when he takes them. If we become angry about that, we will not accomplish anything. All we can do is learn to accept it and see the good in it. Perhaps the death of one person will create the life of another.
It's no always fair and it doesn't always make sense but it's for the best. His grandmother is with God in a place that is much better than here. Rather than being sad for her, it'd be better to be happy. That isn't easy of course, but maybe knowing that she is somewhere much better would be a comforting thought.

Tonight I will just continue to pray.